I haven't blogged in a while because I really haven't been feeling great and who wants to read a downer post? I'm just all jumbled lately and I don't see it changing anytime soon. Silver lining is that my Chris Freytag (my former tv trainer until exercisetv was ripped from on demand) 10lb Slim Down Xtreme program came in today! Despite feeling pitiful and awful all day (for a variety of reasons that I don't wish to discuss) I decided that since it came today, I was going to start today. No excuses. I of course couldn't make it through the total 50 minutes non-stop but I did continue to move for 50 minutes which is more than half the battle. I'm at least proud of myself for that. I also found the most perfect post-bac certificate program for me today! A program that I'll never be able to afford because our lovely educational system in America does not allow for help paying for prereqs if you're looking to change careers. On that note, before I get all boo-hooey I'm off. Hopefully better news tomorrow after 40 minutes of Xtreme Cardio Kickboxing and 75 minutes of hot yoga!
Sometimes my thoughts get really overwhelming and when that happens I usually have to do something active and relatively creative. I've been using coloring books since before they were cool and strangely baking is still a big go-to for me but there's also writing. Today while lamenting to the husband he suggested I write a blog to try to just get shit out. So that's what I'm doing. We are moving back to Louisville. Yay? I guess that's still TBD. I love Louisville, I really do and I have for years but like a weird, slightly dysfunctional, long term relationship, love just wasn't enough. I felt trapped and suffocated. I had created this identity box for myself and while it worked for a while it eventually turned into my coffin. It was tiny and I didn't feel like it could fit everything I wanted to be a part of my identity. 15 months ago I was exercise and non-profit worker Rennay. That's it. When we moved I realized it was a true clean slate. Absolutely ...
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