It's my birthday! This is actually the first year I've been anything but excited about it and that makes me really sad. It could be because last year I spent my birthday running around the happiest place on earth for the Princess Half. It could be because next year I'll be in my mid to late 20s instead of just mid. It could be because it's now been 10 years since I started making my escape from Kentucky plan and a decade later I'm still here. I don't know what it is but I do know that today I have a wonderful family, comfy home and a few good friends and that is all I really need right now :)
Sometimes my thoughts get really overwhelming and when that happens I usually have to do something active and relatively creative. I've been using coloring books since before they were cool and strangely baking is still a big go-to for me but there's also writing. Today while lamenting to the husband he suggested I write a blog to try to just get shit out. So that's what I'm doing. We are moving back to Louisville. Yay? I guess that's still TBD. I love Louisville, I really do and I have for years but like a weird, slightly dysfunctional, long term relationship, love just wasn't enough. I felt trapped and suffocated. I had created this identity box for myself and while it worked for a while it eventually turned into my coffin. It was tiny and I didn't feel like it could fit everything I wanted to be a part of my identity. 15 months ago I was exercise and non-profit worker Rennay. That's it. When we moved I realized it was a true clean slate. Absolutely ...
The wrap up was my favorite part! I hope you have a great Tuesday! ;)
ReplyDeleteSometimes its just little things you discover are the big things... happy birthday
ReplyDelete"Escape from Kentucky plan" - made me laugh :)