I haven't blogged in a while because I really haven't been feeling great and who wants to read a downer post? I'm just all jumbled lately and I don't see it changing anytime soon. Silver lining is that my Chris Freytag (my former tv trainer until exercisetv was ripped from on demand) 10lb Slim Down Xtreme program came in today! Despite feeling pitiful and awful all day (for a variety of reasons that I don't wish to discuss) I decided that since it came today, I was going to start today. No excuses. I of course couldn't make it through the total 50 minutes non-stop but I did continue to move for 50 minutes which is more than half the battle. I'm at least proud of myself for that. I also found the most perfect post-bac certificate program for me today! A program that I'll never be able to afford because our lovely educational system in America does not allow for help paying for prereqs if you're looking to change careers. On that note, before I get all boo-hooey I'm off. Hopefully better news tomorrow after 40 minutes of Xtreme Cardio Kickboxing and 75 minutes of hot yoga!
Do you ever just wake up, take a big breath of fresh air and feel totally grateful to be alive? Ok, so I don't. But I also don't wake up wishing I hadn't anymore and that is certainly something to be grateful for. You see, I went through a very long, very dark phase in my life where every day was not a blessing, I couldn't enjoy a pretty day and I begged the earth to swallow me whole. I had things on the horizon and did a pretty damn good job of faking every normal human emotion so no one knew what was going on. The only one I didn't have fooled was myself and unfortunately at that time, mine was the only voice I heard and the only opinion that mattered. Without going into detail I'll just say that there was a point when I hit rock bottom. And as I sat there and finally felt solid ground under me I realized that I was no longer falling. What was more important was I realized the true benefit of rock bottom, the ability to put your feet on the ground. When I ...
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