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Rennay, Julie & Julia

Today I watched Julie & Julia (thanks Redbox!) and it was really good. If you haven't seen it, watch it. Anyhow, it really made me think about my life and blogging and cooking and all. So at this moment, I vow to be a better blogger...although as of right now I'm the only one affected by this decision.  Not that I think I'm terribly interesting, a very good writer or someone with things worth saying, however, I do think I have things that I want to say and if someone finds those things interesting...well that's just great.

I recall asking my mom and other people pretty regularly, "What's wrong with me?" and/or "Why am I such a weirdo?" Lately it has been occurring to me that maybe I'm not a weirdo and that I'm just different. I'm a vegetarian, I love to read, I'm a foster parent to unwanted animals and I volunteer with middle schoolers for at least 4 months out of the year coaching speech and drama. I've graduated college with a bachelors degree, run a marathon, had a poem published (albeit the source may not have been 100% credible), become a national junior public speaking champion, attended 2 national speech, drama and debate competitions and came home with 3 trophies (1st, 2nd and 3rd) not to mention the dozens of trophies in general accumulated over the years, completed six internships, been to Europe and moved over 800 miles away from everything I knew. Honestly, I do a lot of things that a lot of people wouldn't do. Why? Because it's hard! Public speaking is terrifying! Running is exhausting! School is expensive AND time consuming! But I did those things. I'm not conceited as it may seem at this point. In fact, I probably have the lowest self esteem of anyone I know. But at some point a person needs to learn to recognize themselves, appreciate themselves and congratulate themselves. So that's what I'm doing.

This blog is going to become an outlet for me and also just a way to recognize myself, my family, my boyfriend, my pets and anyone/anything else I find to deserve recognition. Hopefully now I can just keep it up :)

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  1. You are a wonderful writer babe, and I told you that I'm very proud of everything you have done. You're an extremely hard worker and I'm glad you are giving yourself some credit you have accomplished so much.

    Your guy,

    Tyler

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