It's my birthday! This is actually the first year I've been anything but excited about it and that makes me really sad. It could be because last year I spent my birthday running around the happiest place on earth for the Princess Half. It could be because next year I'll be in my mid to late 20s instead of just mid. It could be because it's now been 10 years since I started making my escape from Kentucky plan and a decade later I'm still here. I don't know what it is but I do know that today I have a wonderful family, comfy home and a few good friends and that is all I really need right now :)
Do you ever just wake up, take a big breath of fresh air and feel totally grateful to be alive? Ok, so I don't. But I also don't wake up wishing I hadn't anymore and that is certainly something to be grateful for. You see, I went through a very long, very dark phase in my life where every day was not a blessing, I couldn't enjoy a pretty day and I begged the earth to swallow me whole. I had things on the horizon and did a pretty damn good job of faking every normal human emotion so no one knew what was going on. The only one I didn't have fooled was myself and unfortunately at that time, mine was the only voice I heard and the only opinion that mattered. Without going into detail I'll just say that there was a point when I hit rock bottom. And as I sat there and finally felt solid ground under me I realized that I was no longer falling. What was more important was I realized the true benefit of rock bottom, the ability to put your feet on the ground. When I ...
The wrap up was my favorite part! I hope you have a great Tuesday! ;)
ReplyDeleteSometimes its just little things you discover are the big things... happy birthday
ReplyDelete"Escape from Kentucky plan" - made me laugh :)