Mom left early early this morning and ever since I've been officially on my own here in Dallas...well, Irving. It's weird...and more importantly, boring. I can't wait to make friends! Tomorrow I'm taking all of my stuff over to my apartment before the furniture comes Monday. Thank God my mom was nice enough to extend my hotel stay. Mani also goes to daycare Monday so she'll quit driving me nuts! There's just not enough for her to do around here. Or me for that matter. So I spent the day eating sour patch kids and other crap and watching the Lifetime dysfunction junction movie marathon. I had enough of that so I switched to HBO just in time to catch My Sister's Keeper. Excellent movie but I CRIED LIKE A BABY! Kinda put a damper on the day, but now I know the next book I'll be reading. Success. Hopefully I'll have more to report soon other than it's so damn hot!
Do you ever just wake up, take a big breath of fresh air and feel totally grateful to be alive? Ok, so I don't. But I also don't wake up wishing I hadn't anymore and that is certainly something to be grateful for. You see, I went through a very long, very dark phase in my life where every day was not a blessing, I couldn't enjoy a pretty day and I begged the earth to swallow me whole. I had things on the horizon and did a pretty damn good job of faking every normal human emotion so no one knew what was going on. The only one I didn't have fooled was myself and unfortunately at that time, mine was the only voice I heard and the only opinion that mattered. Without going into detail I'll just say that there was a point when I hit rock bottom. And as I sat there and finally felt solid ground under me I realized that I was no longer falling. What was more important was I realized the true benefit of rock bottom, the ability to put your feet on the ground. When I ...
I also watched that movie last night and cried. So excited for you. Glad juicy could be with you. Keep those posts coming. I so enjoy them. Ciao for now. Pat
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