Greetings from my car located somewhere outside of Indianapolis. We are driving home from Michigan and picked up an extra passenger. The Colonel's youngest brother caught a ride with us and is going to hang around for a day or two. That means I snagged the back seat and have been sleeping off and on without feeling guilty. As soon as we get home I have to do laundry and pack because I'm heading out to Dallas obnoxiously early tomorrow morning for a couple of days. Then once I'm back Wednesday or Thursday I have to get into adequately trained beginner triathlete mode and head to Cincinnati Saturday for my first tri of the year. Look who has a calendar all of a sudden. I'll recap my many trips soon but for now it's another hundred miles of the stunning Indiana landscape.
Do you ever just wake up, take a big breath of fresh air and feel totally grateful to be alive? Ok, so I don't. But I also don't wake up wishing I hadn't anymore and that is certainly something to be grateful for. You see, I went through a very long, very dark phase in my life where every day was not a blessing, I couldn't enjoy a pretty day and I begged the earth to swallow me whole. I had things on the horizon and did a pretty damn good job of faking every normal human emotion so no one knew what was going on. The only one I didn't have fooled was myself and unfortunately at that time, mine was the only voice I heard and the only opinion that mattered. Without going into detail I'll just say that there was a point when I hit rock bottom. And as I sat there and finally felt solid ground under me I realized that I was no longer falling. What was more important was I realized the true benefit of rock bottom, the ability to put your feet on the ground. When I ...
Have a safe trip home & to Dallas. Good luck with your tri!
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